a reminder to myself.

Everyone has that one thing that makes them tick, that brings to life their soul. I recognize it as a swelling that starts in my stomach, just below my ribcage and slowly spreads up my chest and through my arms simultaneously spilling down my legs and into my feet. My throat is full like when something is caught or when you try to not cry. It fills me so completely i begin feeling trapped within my body. Every part of my being coming to life and expanding. I am left reeling inside myself lost and yet utterly found. Every time i glimpse between pages of a book, every time i enter a new reality i simmer. The stories fill me releasing new truths from my soul.

The stories don't always come from books. As a child they mostly came from within me. I remember starting games with barbies or my sisters but eventually i was gone. I don't know if my sisters stopped playing or if i did. It didn't matter because i was gone away, lost in the story my brain was creating. I no longer wanted to act them out in games because the physical world was too limiting. Staring into windows, walls, and skies i watched as all the atoms of this world rearrange into whatever i desired. With a reality far more intense than any 3-d movie could ever hope to be.

When i am in my vortex of creativity i do not think what should come next in my story. I simply release myself from physical surroundings and unleash the story that has ALREADY been created. I allow my creative mind to link with my consciousness to create all i have ever dreamed. This is where i aim to live.

Loving Exercise

I have recently fallen in LOVE with exercising again! It sort of started last year when i was really stressed out. I started running because if i ran hard enough and fast enough i couldn't think and THAT was bliss! After a few weeks of running i started to notice how much more energy i had. Also my anxiety and stress levels seemed to be going down too! However once i moved back home i got out of the routine and i missed the energy i had and how much better my body looked(haha).

After the wedding I was determined to get back into it! (i know, that makes since right, get in shape AFTER the wedding haha) Anyway, the second time i didn't need the run the way i did before and therefor started noticing how uncomfortable it was and how much slower i was and how my legs were tired and breathing was annoying AND... basically i just didn't want to keep running! I decided i needed a buddy someone to keep me going and make me feel guilty if i didn't. I tried my husband but unfortunately it's too easy for me to say no to him and he accepts my ridiculous excuses way to easily. (ahha love you dear) However he did come through for me. He suggested i take a "gym" class through the school. I got online and discovered Cardio Kickboxing, convinced my sister to do it with me, and well... my life will never be the same!

My class was only Tuesday and Thursday for an hour! After the first two months i was hooked i wanted to go all the time! I found myself shopping for gym clothes rather than cute clothes. I talked to my teacher and she now lets me come to her Monday- Wednesday classes too! So i now go to kickboxing 4 days a week and run on Fridays! I LOVE it! I feel sad though because my kickboxing class ends may 6th so i am currently in the market for an awesome gym that offers kickboxing and Zumba! I keep hearing about Zumba and it sound really fun!

Well that is all i have to share for now John should be home any time! yay!